So I feel like I just need to write. I don't care what about I just need to type and forget myself.
I love writing. It feels like such an escape for me so often. Even when I am so upset or angry that I can't even think straight, writing makes it all go clear. It is one thing that can organize my thoughts, it calms me down, and by the time I am done I generally feel so much better about myself and life in general.
This semester is huge. Last semester was great. I feel like I know who I am and know myself so much better. I am so much more stable that i have been in the past. I know how to pick friends and how to work out difficult situations. But now this semester is different. I'm being faced with a whole new predicament. One that I didn't think I would ever have to worry about again. But here it is staring me in the face.
I feel like this semester I need to be far more serious about God. There are big things happening in my life and I know I need Him to be a part of it all or none of it is going to work out.
This may not seem like much (and I know that it isn't much at all) But I think what I am going to start with as a small step is to set aside one day a week for the semester where I will go somewhere that I wont get distracted or disturbed and pray for 1 hour. I want to make it more as the semester goes on, but I figure small steps are the best way to get into good habits. I feel like this is something that I really need to be doing.
Also this semester i have gotten a new roommate and she seems super cool. She's from Maine too! Julie ans Steph are awesome. I am feeling so much closer to Julie this semester too, even tho it's early on. I feel like I can really talk to here about anything and that 99% of the time we are really on the same page. We have talked about her church quite a bit this semester and in some ways I am so jealous. I would love to have the same kind of community that she seems to have. she also seems to have such a better sense of what she really specifically believes. I guess that's the best way I can put it. But yeah, I love Julie. =]
So I suppose I'll do something a little different this time. If you are actually reading this, and you are my friend, and you care about me, can you please say a little prayer for me about this semester and some stuff going on in my life? Thanks so much if you do, I really do appreciate it.
~Alyssa
