Lost along the way...

"[L] is for the way you look at me, [O] is for the only one I see, [V] is very, very extraordinary, [E] is even more than anyone that you adore."



"What is love Baby don't hurt me Don't hurt me no more Baby don't hurt me Don't hurt me no more"



"Words come easy but dont mean much When the words theyre sayin we cant put trust in Were talkin bout love in a different light And if we all learn to love it would be just right Hey, tell me havent ya heard? Luv, is a serious word Hey, I think its time ya learned I dont care what they say I dont care care what ya heard The word luv, luv is a verb"



"Hey, Can't kick the habit Yeah, I got to have it Yeah, I 'm what they call a Love addict, Love addict Hey, can't live without it Yeah, G'on shout about it Hey, I'm a symptomatic Love addict, Love addict "





So... Yeah. The biggest four letter word that so many of us have forgotten. I have forgotten.

I don't even know where to begin with this one so please bear with me... I guess the best place i could start would be with this:





"13:1 If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3 If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing.
4 Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant 5 or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; 6 it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. 7 Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
8 Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away. 11 When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways. 12 For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.
13 So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love."



This chapter of 1 Chorinthians, wedged in between chapters discussing the importance and function of spiritual gifts in the lives of Christians. Notice verses 1-3. We can have all of these wonderful gifts, but if we don't have love then everything else is pointless.

As a Christian, I know that I have fallen so short... in everything.

I have not loved as He loved, I have acted as though I get to decide who is worhty of my love and who is not. I have even forgotten the very definition of Love.



As Christians we have lost sight of what Love is, it's purpose and significance in our lives, and how it is suppose to be presented in out lives. We have decided that we know what is best and that if someone is not the same as us, has different beliefs, looks different, smells funny, has an irritating personality, then we don't have to love them. We don't have to treat them as an equal... and the list goes on.



I have acted bitter, spitefull, and hatefull towards people that i should have been showing love to. We live in a broken world full of hurting people. We all know at least one person who needs Love, maybe you are the person that needs Love. How does it need to be shown? maybe all somone needs is a hug... a smile... you saying that they are in your thoughts and prayers...
We can see that all people want is to be loved and to show love. (at least the majority of people) Look at the song lyrics again. they are all about finding love and figuring out what it is. WHy are we not showing the world what love really is. at that wether or not it is deserved is not part of the question.



Am I patient?

Am I kind?

Do I demand my own way?

Am I jealous?

Am I boastful?

Am I iritable?

Do I keep a record of wrongs?

Am I happy when the truth comes out?

Do I never give up or lose faith?

Do I enure through every circumstance?



Sometimes I can come out on top... Sometimes I bottom out...

I guess im trying to say is that without love we have nothing. We can think that we are the best Christian when in all actuality we are sometimes the most refutable examples of Christ that can be found.

~Lyss

typing through tears

why am i even here? I am so far away from home... from everything that i know.. from everything that is familiar to me... what am i doing here? besides crying my eyes out? besides missing my siblings grow up? besides missing out on all the memories? besides tryiing to be independent?

i don't think i've ever missed home this much... i just wanna be home... i wanna be in that chaos.. i wanna be there to hear the ridiculous arguments... to tease, to be teased... sure i have great people here... but i need my family...

i missed connors birthday... katie and dee's birthdays... i'm missing them grow up... and there's nothing i can do about it... absolutely nothing.. i wan't them here now more than anything...

(time elapse)

okay... tears have subsided for now... yeah yeah yeah. i know i'm here for a reason, this is where i wanna go to school, i even belive God wants me here... blah blah blah.

yeah whatever... there are reasons for me being here... and i'm not leaving.. i know... but being here now.. with family... doing nothing... having tons of downtime... no distractions.. knowing that i'm going to see a bunch more family... and also knowing that MY family isn't going to be there is killing me...

so sorry for the totally depressing and tear-jerking blog.... (as i'm sure it was) i'll try to be a bit more perky and happy next time i write.

~Lyss

Frustration that's not mine to have...

DISCLAIMER: First of all i do realize that other peoples problems are not my problems and that i cannot possibly fix them. i know that each person is responsible for the decisions that they make and that no matter how much effort and time i put into someone that i can't make them into the person i want them to be, or that i know they have to potential of being. i know all of this. and that is my disclaimer.

So I love people. I am a people person. I also love my friends more than anything. but unfortunately i have some problems with some of my friends. sometimes they just dont see what i see. when they look in the mirror they don't see the same person i do. they don;t have the same motivation i do. they don't have the same priorities i do. they don't see themselves as priceless. they don't have the motivation that they once did. they have lost sight of the goals that were once so important to them.

some of them are changin their priorities into things that they shouldnt... or worse yet, they don't have priorities anymore. God is taking second place to other things... maybe third or fourth....

sometimes it's my place to say something... because they have put me in a place of accountablility... but so much more often then not, i can't do anything. i can't say anything. sometimes it's because it really 'isn't my business' or sometimes just because i know that they wont listen.

(May i please take a side trip? on the topic of it 'not being my business'. Hun. the way i see it it is my business. if you are my friend, and if i love you, and if i want nothing more than for you to succeed in life, and if i want you to be happy {to have true joy}, if all of that and more is true... then how is it not only my business but also my responsibility to be there. to be the one telling you that you're being an idiot. to be the one taking away your internet cord. to be the one telling you that you don't need someone there taking away your innocence to make you feel 'wanted'.

to be the one telling you that life isn't easy and that sometimes it can downright suck, i can get so bad that you can't see the sun anymore. sometimes you can't even find a reason to smile. it can even get so bad that the only reason you are living is because you haven't taken your life.

But you know what?

I hurt for you.
I cry for you.
I ache for you.
I worry for you.
I pray for you.

If I feel for you that much. If I care for you that much. If I love you that much.
It sure as heck is 'my place' to say something.

End bunny trail.)


ANYWAY, I don't always say soemthing when i know i should... because... well i can't. for whatever reason. they have lost sight of everything that's truly important and it doesn't matter what i say or what i do i can't get them back on track. because they don't want to listen to me. they don't want to admit that what i'm saying is true.

People in general hate being told that they are wrong, or that they have changed for the worse, or that they are the only one that can do anything to help themselves.

this isn't even nearly encompasing everything that I want it to... but it will have to do for now. that is if anyone is still even reading this... Spring Break '09 starts tomorow.. i'll have plenty of time to write then... Mucho Love.

~Lyss