Well, as it turns out, life goes on. One day follows another and before you know it a week has gone by. Then a month. Then two. Before you realize it you don't know how long it's been. How many times have I told that to someone else? Now those words are ringing true in my own life. I am beginning to enjoy life again. It seems as though being single and 'alone' isn't the end of the world. I no longer cry myself to sleep. It's becoming easier to think back on times together and just be thankful for the good without having my heart break.

Life is life and I am moving on. I never thought I would ever feel the way that I do now.

Gaaaaahhhhh

Fuuuuuuuucccckkkkkk

When I close my eyes and try to figure out what my mood is, that is the only thing that I hear. I want to scream at the top of my lungs till there is no breath left in me. I want to cry until my eyes dry up forever. I want to drink till I forget everything and loose all inhibitions.

Was there ever a way that I could have changed the ending to this chapter? Was there a way to make this end in Happily ever after? I know what I should be doing. I should be focusing on a relationship with God. The lack of that is what screwed me in the first place.

Well. I guess I'll leave this with the one thing flashing in my head.

Fuuck.