Hearing...

So I am not sure what I want to do with my life. Have that basic outline in my head of what i want my life to look like by the time i'm 60 but no absolute plan. 

I want to help people.  One night last semester Wes sat me down and talked with me. He had just had a class that day with Effler about calling and he felt like he needed to talk to me. he gave me a piece of paper and told me to write down my calling. I'm not sure where these words came from... but they came from me cause it's my handwritting. Here is what I wrote:

"I am called to be a big sister. I am here to be the one that others can love, trust, hate, and believe. I am here to be a crying shoulder, a voice of reason, love nomatter what  'to bind up the broken hearted, proclaim liberty to the captives, freedom from sorrow (Is. 61)' Here to cry the tears that they can't, pray the prayers they won't, tell them what they need to know but don't want to hear. I am here to show Jesus to the hurting people." 

So... wow... Yeah, that's exactly what i am called to be... who i want to be... there is no doubt in my mind that doing that for the rest of my life would make me happy.  That it ME.  In a nutshell thta is who I am, who i want to be, how i hope i'll always be. 

the only problem that i can see is... i don't see a job that encompasses all of that... i mean.. yeah, I can be a counsellor, i can be super active in a youth group, i can be a super mom, i can do all of it at the same time... but is that gonna fulfil that? 

I'm starting to think that it might... I'm starting to think that I may just be on the right track.. I'm also realizing that it's a process... not an overnight deal.  I can't change my major to Psychology and then all of a sudden feel perfectly right in everything. I may not like every Psych class that I take. I may hate being stuck with it. I might have no idea what to do when i graduate. there are plenty of things that might and probably will happen. but that's okay. i know what i am. i know who i am. for the first time in a long time.  I KNOW. Wow... what a great feeling... 

I was going to write about Carl Rogers, and how much i loved his article "To Hear and Be Heard" but I suppose i got sidetracked... and i don't wanna over-do one blog... So i'll write all about how amazing he is and how i could have written what he wrote if i were that eloquent with words. 

thanks for listening...

~Lyss