"You can sense the emotions of those around you. You can feel what they are feeling as though their feelings are your own. Intuitively, you are able to see the world through their eyes and share their perspective. You do not necessarily agree with each person's perspective. You do not necessarily feel pity for each person's predicament -- this would be sympathy, not Empathy. You do not necessarily condone the choices each person makes, but you do understand. This instinctive ability to understand is powerful. You hear the unvoiced questions. You anticipate the need. Where others grapple for words, you seem to find the right words and the right tone. You help people find the right phrases to express their feelings -- to themselves as well as to others. You help them give voice to their emotional life. For all these reasons other people are drawn to you."
This is suppose to me, and at times it is very accurate. and that's what I'm writing about. I can be so frustrating to be able to 'see through someone else's eyes' and not be able to explain that to another person. It can be so hard not to get frustrated with other people for not feeling the same way as I do about certain things and situations. But is that right of me? I mean honestly, that is one of my biggest gifts, so can I possibly be upset with someone for not having the same strength that I do? I don't know...
All I know for sire is that I can see things through other peoples eyes. I can get so passionate about something, just because I "understand" how someone can get into the situation that they are in. I don't necessarily condone their behavior (if it's something that someone chose) but I can understand the 'Why'.
Why is a big deal with me... "Why did you do that?" "Why are you sorry?" "Why is the system the way it is?" "Why did you say that?" Understanding the 'why' makes me feel almost closer to people.
I want to help people. In my life, I want to do good where other people have done wrong. When people are broken, I want to be part of the repair. I want God to use me as a tool to take hurt away from people. I want to make kids that feel they are worthless know that they are important and mean something. I want men and women who feel lost and alone, to know that someone cares and is willing to be with them ever step of the way. I want teens to know that they can fool everyone but me, and that they don't have to fake who they are. I want to be genuine and feel like i serve a real purpose.
Just thinking about that makes me ready to do something! Anything! I want to be a help. I want to be a part of the solution. But not everyone understands that. And I can't blame them...
All I ask is for support... You may not understand, But support me. I can't explain the way I feel any better than this. It's like when Jeremiah says: “And if I say, I will not make mention of him, nor speak any more in his name, then there is in my heart as it were a burning fire shut up in my bones, and I am weary with forbearing, and I cannot contain” (Jer. 20:9) I feel that this is my call. No. I know that this is my call.
This is who I am... The best way I can put it into words... I don't come with the perfect plan to stay 'disconnected' or keep 'work at work' I know that this isn't going to be easy, that there will be days that are going to be hard. Those days when I Re-realize that I can't 'fix' people. But I'm ready for that. This is who I am...
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