I have reached that point.
I have reached the point where anything sends me over the edge.
I have gotten to the place where those things that don't really matter, and really don't bother me, make me take a thirty minute shower so I can cry without getting caught.
I am falling over the edge.
I can't keep my concentration on anything for very long.
I dread summer more and more with every passing moment.
One splinter seems to shatter the whole image.
I feel like everything is slipping out of my hands and is spiraling out of control and I just stand by, helpless.
Unable to control it.
Unable to stop the downward spiral.
I just stand by, helpless.
I can't continue this.
I want to just curl up with Will and let him hold me, tell me everything will be okay.
But I can't even have that.
If this is how I feel, how does he feel?
I try to distract myself with that, so that I stop worrying about myself, but even that only works for a short period of time.
I said I could do a long distance relationship.
But I can't do this.
I said I could spend summers apart.
But every week?
All I want is something to look forward to and not have it get screwed up.
Please?
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